My Whirlwind Journey Begins!!!
1/9/2011 9:15 PM
Here Goes, From the begining!!! I started using opiates with some "friends" of mine that i also drank with! I met them through an X boyfriend of mine from HS. That relationship was a disaster to begin with and he introduced me to pot and drinking! I was mainly using Oxycontin and Percocets which soon came to a hault when an organized drug raid through out my county. That led me into herion, which became a major, heavy addiction.
The herion brought my addiction to a whole new level. I was stealing money from family members and friends! I stealing pursing and causing soooooo many ppl harm that i didn't even recognize! HOWEVER, the heroin also brought me to a better place because it led me to get caught! and i got arrested twice for it! I wound up going to a detox!
The Detox sent me to rehab in florida where i wound up staying in Delray Beach for 6 months. Those 6 months I tried the I'll only drink! didn't work! I wont go to meetings but stay dry! didnt work! ill use undetectable psych meds to get high! didnt work! until it all led me back to herion and this time i started to use needles!!!! well this was a short run with herion but it had a lasting effect (by the grace of god i am sober and alive today)!
My last usage of herion was in a DD parking lot and I used int he car, walked inside to wait for a friend to get off work and overdosed! no paramedics were called because i still had a pulse (as per the managerand my "friends") I packed my car from my friends crackhouse apartment (while they got high and didnt help nor cared) and i drove myself to detox!
While in detox I decided to stay through the rehab program. While i was at their program they decided that a long term program would do me good! structure and discipline and a long term womens facility back in NJ!
So, I got sent to Alina Lodge for 11months where the women and men are completely seperated and it is a time wrap back to the 50s!!!!! However, I am sober and I owe my life to God and Alina Lodge!
After Alina Lodge, I went to their women's halfway house for 4months across the street (Haley House). After Haley House I went to Mrs. Wilson's Halfway House for 2months and than i went to a Sober House called Milestone and i was there for 5 months until i got my own apt with my roommate from Milestone!
During my stay at Milestone I started hanging out with all the friends i ignored during my addiction ( my real friends, the ones whoa re there through thick and thin, the ones i call second family)! my first weekend out of Mrs. Wilsons I went and hung out with my friends and i meet my fiance! He is a police office looking to become a narcotics officer (ironic)! That first night we met we couldn't keep our eyes off each other and my life has been changed ever since! We adopted a puppy and named her Bailey! She is a triumphant little pain in the butt. But i absolutely love her with all my heart as do i love her daddy! I now couldnt imagine my life without him! and we have such a great balance. he understands that i am in recovery and when i need a meeting i need a meeting. that i am a felon but i am a different person from who i was than! he knows that i will never be recovered and it is a constant, daily process to stay sober! we make a great team and an even better family! i cant wait to blog more about my updating life in recovery and my life in love in recovery!!!
Thanx for Reading!!!!!