How are you Jessica? I hope you didn't give up. Right now, I'm struggling to change, I'm so tired of living a messy life. I'm reading some addiction resources online to seek support and I managed to read good comments about addiction rehab centers treatments. I even trying to consider if going in Minnesota will avoid me to distractions.This is my step one so please cheer me up. I know it's hard but I will always tell myself not to give up.