Waking up this morning, I am truly blessed

Mind is clear, body strong, no more toxic mess

God is good, all the time,  He's given me so much

From the warm bed from which a crawl

to the smiling faces of my children and their soft sweet touch

So many things I could list I could go on and on

from the breath that fills my lungs and my daughter and my son.

The grace of God and His loving mercy fills my heart with love

Knowing that I am never alone and He is guiding me from above.

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This pain and frustration is clouding my mind

I guess the day will never come when i find

someone who cares

 

i give and give and get nothing in return

i guess the day will never come when i finally learn

that love shouldn't be so hard

 

someday i will be free from all this pain

the sun will shine through all the rain

and i will be able to smile again

 

i will live one day at a time until that day

when i am finally free to live in a way

that i deserve.

 

someone that with honor and integrity

promises aren't just words he says to me

someone who will live up to his word.

i pray that soon i will see that day

until then, i have to find a way

to find joy and happiness in other things

 

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I wrote this in response to a forum post. As I was writing it I realized that it had become something of an anthem for me. So I chose to keep it here.

Well, this is my first blog entry.  There is lots of "crazy" around me lol.    I have been trying to help one of my oldest and dearest friends through a crisis.  She is locked in battle right now for custody for her children and the people she is fighting are nuts.  A lady on their side is stirring lots of problems for her and her mother. 

My friend's mother was married to this person's brother for many years.  He has since passed away and now the lady is on a warpath against my friend.  The don't really know why, it is just happening.  She has made up all these things that my friend's mother is supposed to have done and filed charges against her.  They shouldn't be hard to beat, but she still had to spend the weekend in jail before she could go before a judge.

This all started because my friend decided to move out of state.  The father is livid about that. He is a meth addict and was always abusive to my friend during their marriage.  She is finally away from him and he does all this.   He has never been a father to these children and they have begged her not to make them go with him.  It is a very sad situation.  I have done all I can for her to help her get through this,  now she is simply waiting for a decision from the judge to see if she can take her boys and go home.  She is a good mother and loves them dearly.

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