When asked to speak, weeks ahead of time in front of those that have witnessed you grow. What messege do you carry?

I am there fore I go

very short

Although my youth was shaterred by events beyond my control there were some good times too.

Willing to go to any length? I am are you?

The two greatest loves I had known

Step 12,

Having had a spiritual awakening as the result of these steps, we tryed to  carry this messege to other alcoholics and to practice these principals in all our affairs.

 

Assuming of course we have done the prior 11 steps and have implimented them into our lives a spiritual awakening is to be expected. AS THE RESULT OF. These steps. My first sponsor told me this was a change in attitude. My whole attitusde not just the part I wanted changed. I had hopefully by then become more spiritual and there fore unselfish.

 

I tryed to carry this messege. Well certainly. We call this service work and sponsorship. From cleaning an ashtray to speaking on the circuit. All sorts of ways to carry the messege, including in how we treat our fellows in and out of recovery. What do I do on a daily basis to carry the messege? Am I an example of what recovery has given me or what I have taken?

 

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Well this is my first attempt at a blog. Been wanting to try this so here goes.

I awoke this morning filled with a tremendous sense of peace. I live by Smith Mountian Lake in Virginia. It seems every morning the routine is the same. We like routine don't we? I open my eyes and look towards the ceiling and thank God for a good nights sleep. I roll out of bed and hit my knees asking Him to keep me sober today and to direct my thinking. For heavens sake do not let me be the director! LOL

The mornings during the week my prayer and meditation time is limited by the fact I have to go to work and haven't yet adjusted my time to allow more solitude in the morning. The weekends though, like today are differant. My roomie is out on the lake fishing. The coffee is already made. The sun is peaking through the trees and you can smell the water in the crisp fresh air. There are bunnies in the back yard. Mom and her three kids. They are eating dew covered blades of grass and clover. No wonder I can find no four leaf clovers around here. So the day is going to be beautiful, I know it already. I take a seat on the back deck and sip coffee. Thank you God I say out loud. There we sit and talk about life and people. Today I have to go to Matty's viewing and memorial service. My thoughts turn to him as I review our relationship. I LOL at some of the things he had said in meetings or after them standing outside the meeting place. I sit quietly reflecting on the serious comments he has made over the years that have helped me and who knows who else. I thank God for allowing me the opportunity to get sober and get to know Matty. He had what I wanted and died the way I hope to as well. Loving life and sober....